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I awake hot, sweaty, mouth parched. 
Sitting up carefully, I let my head swim
to shore. Is this fever? Is that nausea
I feel? It has been some while since I
last fell afoul of it. But this year, 
this year.

I make my way to the bathroom,
mind in what passes for racing
in its thickened state. Is this it?
The one I've been isolated for 
9 months to avoid, only to find

it incubated at last? I review who 
I have interacted with, brought 
cookies to, over the last few days,
who I have exposed. I consider 
how it will feel to have accomplished

no more than I have up to now.
Disappointing, I decide, but beside
the point. I have loved the world 
imperfectly, and been loved in return. 
If this is to be it, it is enough.

I take my handful of nighttime pills,
and return to bed, thinking of St. Francis
asked in the garden what he'd do, if the end
of the world was coming at sundown:
"I would finish weeding my row." 

I drift off, and wake again in the dark
a few hours later, still too hot, but 
this time less disoriented. I rise again
and check: yes, we forgot to turn
the thermostat down before bed.

Love/sick

Sep. 23rd, 2016 10:20 pm
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How is it that I recognize this stirring
inside, when it's been gone from my life
for so many years? A flutter, like the
briefest of zephyrs stirring a curtain
in my soul. Did I only imagine it?
Is it real? Do I want it to be?
How could it be, after all this time?
The rational voice tells me I should
play it safe, of course. Not to get too
excited about what might just be
my imagination. So I stand up,
but in only a few steps I know,
know for certain the
way the heart knows
true love the way
the ear knows up
from down I know
and I rush madly
madly to the john
to bring up every
thing I've ever
held inside.

Like Magic

Mar. 5th, 2016 11:31 pm
bruorton: (Andromeda Galaxy)
How lightly is the mortal set aside, laughing.
How little is made of it to the anxious inquiry:
"It was a tree branch in the dark," I say,
"but I protected my eye with my face."
Hence this little T-shaped rent, see, just under
my right eye, already sealed and healing.

I do not speak of how I was running full out
in the dark, because I thought I knew my way.
I do not describe the cedar twig, a good finger's
width, snapped off and worn by time as smooth
as a lance, as the shaft of an arrow.
I do not mention the moment of impact,

the bright white flash I saw in the lightless dusk.
The fall to my knees as my hand fluttered up,
a protective impulse come far too late; how
when it came back down it had inexplicably
acquired a contact lens, and a thick drizzle
of blood.  I do not try to evoke for them that

instant, when I thought the worst had happened.
I do not recount that it will not be until an hour
later, already with friends and making light of my
misfortune, that my imagination will conjure up
even worse than that worst.  Of how easily
that spike might have been hanging there for years

waiting for me to come along and impale myself
on it, to run at it and drive it deep into my brain.

Instead, every time I'm asked, I tell the same little
joke. And every time tragedy unravels, as the
concerned countenance of each friend transforms
suddenly into laughter, like magic.
bruorton: (Andromeda Galaxy)
The damp May evening after the rain
is hedged in with a woven wall of sound
as impenetrable as the black edge of the woods
going down the slope to the marsh.

The peepers have come in their hundreds,
or their thousands. Who can tell?
The quavers and squeaks and beeps blend
seamlessly, unwavering. Past midnight, past dawn.

It is a 24-hour nightclub down there, young bodies
singing, pulsing, looking for the right signs:
a total hook-up culture. They are the original
Daft Punk, up all night to get lucky.
bruorton: (Andromeda Galaxy)
Shoveling out the sheep barn of a winter's worth
of shit and straw compacted and decomposing,
we entertain ourselves in the manner of 12-year-olds.
Through our dust masks we sing popular songs
strategically substituting in the word "dick" in bids
to make the other two laugh.  A mention of the ewe
Alexis, who hates being penned, brings to mind "Don't
Fence Me In," and soon comes the rousing chorus:
"Give me dick, lots of dick, under st
arry skies above..."
The aches in our backs and shoulders forgotten,
we howl with laughter.  A turn onto the Beatles yields
a treasure trove: All you need is dick... Dick me do...
Happiness is a warm dick...  Between hauling cart
loads of rotting sheep droppings out to the manure pile
we le
an against the sun-warmed barn wall, wiping
filthy perspiration off our faces, trying to come up with
another one.
bruorton: (Andromeda Galaxy)
Trying to have a quiet lunch in the staff room,
my attention keeps being drawn from my reading
to the conversation of the pompous, self-appointed
film aficionado, although "conversation" would imply
that his counterpart is getting a word in edgewise.
For some reason he is enthusiastically listing all the
exploitation film genres he can think of, but when he gets to
"nunsploitation" I know it's time to get out of here,
and fast.
bruorton: (Andromeda Galaxy)
To an Archaeologist 400 Years In the Future
Exploring My House, Which Was Perfectly
Preserved in Volcanic Ash


Please, come in. With your small hammer
and soft brush, come in. You will find
everything in order, more or less,
though I wish I’d had more time to clean.
As you chip your way carefully into the kitchen

you’ll find the glasses in the cabinet above the sink.
Please help yourself, though I have no idea
what you might prefer to drink.
Considering the circumstances
I don’t recommend opening the fridge.

I’m trying to reassure myself that you won’t mind
all the papers and books strewn about
on the coffee table, the ottoman,
pretty much everywhere really, now I think of it.
If you don’t get stuck on figuring out

some pattern to why they are arranged this way
I’m sure they will assist your research
into how we lived, and what
was front-page news four hundred years
and one week ago.

There is more enjoyable reading in the bedroom,
and personal documents, you’ll be interested to know,
are in the locked filing cabinet in the study.
And under the TV is a real artifact, an old
Atari game system which even has a game

where you can play a tiny pixilated
archaeologist who dashes through Egyptian tombs
nabbing ancient treasures, until he succumbs
to the attacks of sacred snakes, lions, and bats.
Don’t worry, there’s nothing so dangerous in here

unless I have left my shoes out again
for you to trip over.
And somewhere around the house—
cross-legged on the couch, lying on the bed, perhaps
hunched over a bowl of cereal at the breakfast table—

will be my absence, a me-shaped hole
in the ashy rock.
I am sorry I missed you; I’m sure
you’re a fascinating person to talk to, and after all
we both have so many questions.
bruorton: (Andromeda Galaxy)
I gave myself a sort of recreational break this week, trying some light verse after the style of Ogden Nash.  I understand one of my subjects has a new movie coming out; wrong one, though, more's the pity.


On Scholarship in Historical Fiction

On comparisons between Umberto Eco and Dan Brown
I frown;

For while I do frequently have trouble understanding the former when his characters use un-translated bits of dead languages in their chatter,
I simply have trouble understanding the latter.

For example, when it comes to the basis for his stories’ theological mischief,
It seems that Mr. Brown is unacquainted with the practice of putting faith in a reader’s ability to suspend disbelief,

But instead he parades about in the national spotlight boldly asserting to the general public that everything between the covers is demonstrable fact,
While any art student could tell you that demonstrability is the main thing it lacked.

When reading Eco, by contrast, though you will never imagine for a moment that what you are reading is literally true, the setting and its history are so rich that you can accept it as utterly real within the parameters of the story, because every bit of it is self-consistent and factually detailed,
Even if it is only a side-note on why an obscure 12th century heretic was impaled.

Which is why I respect Umberto Eco more for requesting belief only within his story itself,
And would rather strongly suggest that Dan Brown be left on the shelf.

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